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*sniff*
its so hard to breathe really, my nose are clogged and i kept sneezing..
Swine Flu? Naah..its not something like that..
its just that, it has been raining for days now and the wind is swooshing like a hurricane..
maybe it was the opened window that made me cold and the open sliding door beside me that made me wet because of the rain..all these factors made me ill..lawls, silly me..

but maybe another factor is that even though its raining i still went outside, specifically in SM to shop some beauty stuff and to watch a movie with my bf..lawls, combining the wind outside and the fully conditioned mall, of course i would probably catch a cold. I still had a great time though, i ate a lot of popcorn, and drank a lot of soda. We watched "night at the museum" and it was really hilarious. (btw, i love those singing angels..they do remind me of Jonas brothers, lols..since thats a historical museum, i thought that maybe those are the past lives of that band..rofl). And after that trip to the mall, unexpectedly we went to their clinic(his parents are dentists) and his parents checked my teeth and gave me a free treatment..talk about a legal relationship. Anyway, that was yesterday..and i was so happy really. I slept accidentally and woke about 12 midnight..i turned on the pc because i cant sleep that time..while i was at it...my mind suddenly drifted somewhere else, and there, before my very eyes...i was thinking about my past...

on how things were different now than before.
I remembered how my past relationship ended, it was our family stuff.
Its like our parents are splitting us up, i remembered how much i loved that guy..
in fact, its like i love that boy before more than i love my boyfriend now...but the different thing is..im much happier with the relationship im in now..that past relationship was too melodramatic. Parents against the love, pretending to hate him just for him to break up with you so ur parents wont kick you out of the house, and something the sort..its too..dramatic.
but i loved that guy so much, but theres too much tears..thats why i decided to end that one at the firstplace..

but im a lot happier now..though im not giving all the love i have because im scared to get hurt like my feeling when i broke up with my past..but i still love my present even so..its just that im so happy..theres a lot of things that he does that makes me happy.

like this afternoon, he was calling me...and chit chatting with me..it was rainy and cold..until he told me that he wanted to see me and told me that he wanted us to go out..
i told him that it the weather is not that good, and we dont have anywhere to go...
when suddenly he told me that just literally GO OUT...he told me that he was outside our house..im really shocked..but i dont want to believe him..he does like to joke around so i said no. (you know he'll say: buahaha!! UTO-UTO) then he told me just a glance outside wouldnt hurt..so i looked outside, i dont see anything...until someone passed by,and is talking with someone on the phone.. and it was him..i was shocked men..his house was kinda out of town, and he said that he just left without asking his parents..i went outside our terrace looking down on him..

lawls, im speechless..we look stupid, looking at eachother and talking by the phone..thats plainly weird..children playing around looked at us...and i was so embarassed.lols, that was a fun experience and really..it made me really really happy.



anyway, as i was thinking about it..i compared my present to the past.
though my present and i kept on fighting...we are somewhat..happy in each others arms.
no secrets behind family, no drama...and etc. Anyway, while im into those extensive thinking..i suddenly stumbled upon my trashed blog. My old wordpress blog..lawls..
the design really sucks, lawls i was still a noob back then. I smiled, and there i saw a post..
that made me grin a bit and made me feel the hurt i was feeling the moment i wrote that post..well, my writing was good in there, im impressed. .and a lot of symbolisms, too.

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I was feeding a cat….
just so you know…she’s pregnant…and she’s been staying at the balcony of my tito’s room…which is….infront of our computer…i always hear her meowing….I just wanna feed her..because..I dont know…I have a soft heart..when it comes to animals.i was inside our house and she was outside…
I opened thae sliding door and from the inside im going to throw the food outside for her to eat…I dont know..but maybe because of strong will to eat..the cat stretched her arms…reaching for food that is in my hand…and then the next thing I know my finger was already bleeding….but still..i gave her the food,,and left..I was wounded…by a cat….the wound is under my nail…thats why, in term of physical…its not seen…but when you are in my position right now…it does hurt…
but it just doesnt seem like it….when I felt the cat’s nail..in my finger…I was just shock and, I couldnt feel anything..but when I clean it up with water….it starts to hurt…and then…it starts to hurt, more and more…..But even after that..I cant hate the cat….I would still continue to feed it..like what I used to do…I would forget the wound…and besides,,she doesn’t know that she hurt me right What Im writing right now was senseless right??
but infact….whatever it is that is happening right now was similar to what im feeling….
it just doesnt seem like it…because on the outside I looked fine but Im really bleeding inside….someone wounded it..at first…it doesnt hurt..but when I tried to clean up and forget…it hurts more…I tried to numb the pain…but the feeling gets worstbut still, i dont know whats happenin..
but I just still —- — after all the wound and hurt — made me feel..
I would still be the way I am to — before…because…I have no right…to let — see that Im hurt…since…– doesnt even know that he hurt me..’cause it doesnt seem like it.

*thanks for joebz for the spoilers..yyaayy!!*

dramatic huh??
oh whatever enough of the dramatic feel..


anyway, here i am again, joining another contest..lawls..
i joined tricia of oh-well.net's contest about friends.
well, while i was editing our pic, my mind drifted to somewhere else again
because the picture i used was taken during november i think..and a lot happened that time, lawls, theres a conflict going on in our group thats why i cant help but think about it while i was editing our picture..

i will post that soon, i was working on the essay and besides i still dont have a confirmation from sis tricia about it..

oh anyway, i think it just have to be until here..
i think i need some rest....im dont feel good.anyway..
oh anyway, thanks for those who join my sweetpuff club and sweetdoll collection
u guys are awesome, those that are interested, either go to home page or go to site for collection and club..its still open.


thanks for those who commented on my last post, a lots of comments a!
thankies guys...btw..visit my photoblog: here!

do follow and leave a comment..speaking of photos, watch out for the airing of my video(feeling professional!?) i am going to have a video greeting my favorite people in the blogging world..you will see me alive!! live!! talking! and moving and breathing!

i am still editing it so watch out...its my token of appreciation for supporters of kymies-lullaby..im so glad that many liked my updates, thanks so much..

im given an award by sis jean.muah...

<img src="http://i41.tinypic.com/k2jkmh.png" />

well,thanks for that and i think imma pass it to my love bloggers..:
JOEBZ, TRICIA(oh well.net), TRISH.
Thats all for now..haha.

also thanks for qi wen for the music category award.
lawls!! i won..thanks a bunch...

thats all ...yay..school days are coming..
PANIC..
muah..love u all..



toodles!

9 comments Availble, click here.

*sniff*
its so hard to breathe really, my nose are clogged and i kept sneezing..
Swine Flu? Naah..its not something like that..
its just that, it has been raining for days now and the wind is swooshing like a hurricane..
maybe it was the opened window that made me cold and the open sliding door beside me that made me wet because of the rain..all these factors made me ill..lawls, silly me..

but maybe another factor is that even though its raining i still went outside, specifically in SM to shop some beauty stuff and to watch a movie with my bf..lawls, combining the wind outside and the fully conditioned mall, of course i would probably catch a cold. I still had a great time though, i ate a lot of popcorn, and drank a lot of soda. We watched "night at the museum" and it was really hilarious. (btw, i love those singing angels..they do remind me of Jonas brothers, lols..since thats a historical museum, i thought that maybe those are the past lives of that band..rofl). And after that trip to the mall, unexpectedly we went to their clinic(his parents are dentists) and his parents checked my teeth and gave me a free treatment..talk about a legal relationship. Anyway, that was yesterday..and i was so happy really. I slept accidentally and woke about 12 midnight..i turned on the pc because i cant sleep that time..while i was at it...my mind suddenly drifted somewhere else, and there, before my very eyes...i was thinking about my past...

on how things were different now than before.
I remembered how my past relationship ended, it was our family stuff.
Its like our parents are splitting us up, i remembered how much i loved that guy..
in fact, its like i love that boy before more than i love my boyfriend now...but the different thing is..im much happier with the relationship im in now..that past relationship was too melodramatic. Parents against the love, pretending to hate him just for him to break up with you so ur parents wont kick you out of the house, and something the sort..its too..dramatic.
but i loved that guy so much, but theres too much tears..thats why i decided to end that one at the firstplace..

but im a lot happier now..though im not giving all the love i have because im scared to get hurt like my feeling when i broke up with my past..but i still love my present even so..its just that im so happy..theres a lot of things that he does that makes me happy.

like this afternoon, he was calling me...and chit chatting with me..it was rainy and cold..until he told me that he wanted to see me and told me that he wanted us to go out..
i told him that it the weather is not that good, and we dont have anywhere to go...
when suddenly he told me that just literally GO OUT...he told me that he was outside our house..im really shocked..but i dont want to believe him..he does like to joke around so i said no. (you know he'll say: buahaha!! UTO-UTO) then he told me just a glance outside wouldnt hurt..so i looked outside, i dont see anything...until someone passed by,and is talking with someone on the phone.. and it was him..i was shocked men..his house was kinda out of town, and he said that he just left without asking his parents..i went outside our terrace looking down on him..

lawls, im speechless..we look stupid, looking at eachother and talking by the phone..thats plainly weird..children playing around looked at us...and i was so embarassed.lols, that was a fun experience and really..it made me really really happy.



anyway, as i was thinking about it..i compared my present to the past.
though my present and i kept on fighting...we are somewhat..happy in each others arms.
no secrets behind family, no drama...and etc. Anyway, while im into those extensive thinking..i suddenly stumbled upon my trashed blog. My old wordpress blog..lawls..
the design really sucks, lawls i was still a noob back then. I smiled, and there i saw a post..
that made me grin a bit and made me feel the hurt i was feeling the moment i wrote that post..well, my writing was good in there, im impressed. .and a lot of symbolisms, too.

Click Here to check out «

I was feeding a cat….
just so you know…she’s pregnant…and she’s been staying at the balcony of my tito’s room…which is….infront of our computer…i always hear her meowing….I just wanna feed her..because..I dont know…I have a soft heart..when it comes to animals.i was inside our house and she was outside…
I opened thae sliding door and from the inside im going to throw the food outside for her to eat…I dont know..but maybe because of strong will to eat..the cat stretched her arms…reaching for food that is in my hand…and then the next thing I know my finger was already bleeding….but still..i gave her the food,,and left..I was wounded…by a cat….the wound is under my nail…thats why, in term of physical…its not seen…but when you are in my position right now…it does hurt…
but it just doesnt seem like it….when I felt the cat’s nail..in my finger…I was just shock and, I couldnt feel anything..but when I clean it up with water….it starts to hurt…and then…it starts to hurt, more and more…..But even after that..I cant hate the cat….I would still continue to feed it..like what I used to do…I would forget the wound…and besides,,she doesn’t know that she hurt me right What Im writing right now was senseless right??
but infact….whatever it is that is happening right now was similar to what im feeling….
it just doesnt seem like it…because on the outside I looked fine but Im really bleeding inside….someone wounded it..at first…it doesnt hurt..but when I tried to clean up and forget…it hurts more…I tried to numb the pain…but the feeling gets worstbut still, i dont know whats happenin..
but I just still —- — after all the wound and hurt — made me feel..
I would still be the way I am to — before…because…I have no right…to let — see that Im hurt…since…– doesnt even know that he hurt me..’cause it doesnt seem like it.

*thanks for joebz for the spoilers..yyaayy!!*

dramatic huh??
oh whatever enough of the dramatic feel..


anyway, here i am again, joining another contest..lawls..
i joined tricia of oh-well.net's contest about friends.
well, while i was editing our pic, my mind drifted to somewhere else again
because the picture i used was taken during november i think..and a lot happened that time, lawls, theres a conflict going on in our group thats why i cant help but think about it while i was editing our picture..

i will post that soon, i was working on the essay and besides i still dont have a confirmation from sis tricia about it..

oh anyway, i think it just have to be until here..
i think i need some rest....im dont feel good.anyway..
oh anyway, thanks for those who join my sweetpuff club and sweetdoll collection
u guys are awesome, those that are interested, either go to home page or go to site for collection and club..its still open.


thanks for those who commented on my last post, a lots of comments a!
thankies guys...btw..visit my photoblog: here!

do follow and leave a comment..speaking of photos, watch out for the airing of my video(feeling professional!?) i am going to have a video greeting my favorite people in the blogging world..you will see me alive!! live!! talking! and moving and breathing!

i am still editing it so watch out...its my token of appreciation for supporters of kymies-lullaby..im so glad that many liked my updates, thanks so much..

im given an award by sis jean.muah...

<img src="http://i41.tinypic.com/k2jkmh.png" />

well,thanks for that and i think imma pass it to my love bloggers..:
JOEBZ, TRICIA(oh well.net), TRISH.
Thats all for now..haha.

also thanks for qi wen for the music category award.
lawls!! i won..thanks a bunch...

thats all ...yay..school days are coming..
PANIC..
muah..love u all..



toodles!